and thats why sharon's sad.

Its almost August. Time flew by so fast. I just cant stand the fact that I may never see this person again. Things will never be the same. and no other guy would do the things he did for me. I was so stupid to think the guys I knew before him would do so much for me cause in the end I just got hurt. And for the last few months I was a complete idiot cause I was just thinking about myself and I didnt know how all of that effected him. Thats why if Karen didnt talk to me the other night, I dont know what would have happenend. I dont know if I'll love someone else as much as I love this person. And he really deserves much better. He was always there for me even when no one else wanted to help. I dont smile as much as I did before cause I keep on thinking about how much time we have left together and that I'm an idiot for wasting it. In a few more weeks, i'll be worse than this. I'm just wondering how long it'll take for me to forget him. I dont know if I would. he has to go and I cant change that. Its going to be hell for me when he leaves. I'm going to be on my own. AGAIN.