not shakespear but its the truth?

She cries herself to sleep each night,
You never asked so you thought she was fine.
Do you like the fact you have her heart?
Or cry at the thought of being apart?

You say you love her but she loves you more,

And when she thinks of you the tears start to pour.

How could you let that young girl cry?

Now she keeps her feelings locked up inside.

When she looks at him, she thinks of you.

And when he holds her she's reminded of you.

The voice in her head keeps calling your name,

She wants to tell the truth but she knows its too late.

She will always remember the memories,

She knows you're not a want but a need.

She's losing her mind, she needs you in her life,

And now her tears are hidden behind her smile.

Her heart longs for the person who left her,

She feels the pain and it tastes so bitter.

She knows this love was meant to be.

And you should feel so sorry,

Because that girl is me.

watching it slowly fading away..

So. Its over? Well. Dont expect me to be happy. But dont expect me to be sad about it all the time. You have to move on. I'll still be here for you.

those wonderful memories will always be remembered. and even

if I do move on....they'll NEVER be forgotten.

I want you to smile and not cry.

I dont want you to have trouble to sleep at night.

I want you to know i'll be here for you.

And that i'll always remember nut and boo.

..

was it meant to end like this??

classroom boredom!

Well, I just finished my BM and christine and I are BORED. And christines complaining cause she wants to finish her stupid essay. and she went pffft when I typed stupid.

All the boys are acting like idiots looking out the window. And Naj is coming! and he's stepping on my foot!

And he just smacked clements butt.

And oh yeah. If any of you guys are moving to tingkatan..BEWARE cause all the boys are in love with NAJ.

Let me explain:

Naj is a very very VERY tall person who wears glasses. All the guys are in love with him ESPECIALLY Rahim(the class's mr.bean.)

Zaims here! Hi zaim:) and he just went away. :(

Let me tell you about zaim:

Zaim sits infront of me and disturbs the hell out of me and christine.

he's one of my best friends and is acting kinda emo now.

and he likes gorilla's.

for some reason.

...

right now, I think moving to tunku has to be the greatest thing i've done.

the people.

the teachers.

and the way things go around here.

but yeah, we have those girls who have nothing better to do then gossip about girls.

those annoying rumours.

and bla bla bla.

well.

I have to go now.

Christine needs to finish her stupid essay.

So bye people.

I'll probably blog later.

Weee!

:]

Xx.

ps:christine is mean.

.

So right now, I'm in my mummys office waiting for the bus. I have to come at 6.40 now cause of KARREEENNN. Ahh. Well, last night was just plain confusing. I had more to say but I had to shut up cause I know it would ruin things. . But when I tried, everything came out wrong. I dont think he really understood me. = = And know you're probably wondering what I'm blabbing about and dont even try to ask cause I dont know myself!!! Its like after he(yea, you guys know who he is but anywayyyss) left, I've been getting mixed moods. Like when I think about him, I feel happy to still be with him, but when I think about the distance and how long it'll be till I see him again.. I dont feel so good. :( But yeah, I know it'll last and i'm happy to have such a wonderful person. So to the people who dont think it'll last:PISS OFF. I dont like you so go AWAY. So, I have to go on the bus now. Wait no. Its only 7. = = anyways, I've been acting like a total brat for the last couple of days and I really feel sorry for the people who had to deal with me, : Christine, Nina, Lee, Putri, and Shibby. Yup. These are the people who cheered me up. I thinkt he people who are finally cracking are Christine, Nina and Putri cause I see these girls everyday in school so I drive them mad. So I have to go on the bus noww. its 7.13 and I just want to get out of this freezing cold office. (teeth chatters)

So bye for now people!
Xx.

ps: I dont think you should waste time especially if you need to say something improtant and when you're leaving for somewhere else the next day. = =

/:/

my mama told me not to cling onto people.
cause its not good.
but what if you're just waiting for something?
like something better to happen?

I shouldnt trust people to much.

penang!

okay well, i'm in penang and i'm missing everyone back home! :( i'm using uncle ashoks computer cause I begged him. :p. well, I went to the airport at 10.00 cause my flight was at 11.00. then, my flight got delayed so my mummy panicked and made me go in with the young passengers tag as I was travelling alone. So there I was, walking with the air steward trying to look mature. Mature my FOOT. everyone could see my young passengers tag. = = and I got on the plane happy to be alone, but then...dum dum dummmmm. this really big(I wont say fat, I wont say fat) guy came and sat next to me. I could hardly move. = = anyways I arrived at KL airport and wanted to go buy a mag but I was forced to run to the gate as I was the latest person to board. :( when I was running, I saw a guy who looked EXACTLY like rauth from behind so I started chasing him screaming 'RAUTH! RAUTH!' and when he turned around, it wasnt him. I AM SO STUPID. = = naturally I started crying but was then pulled by the air stewardess who was assinged to take care of me. She nearly lost it when I asked if I could go buy cookies. then FINALLY, I got onto the flight and was seated next to this couple. and they were so romantic! but it got kinda gross cause the guys tongue was literally down the girls throat. its not as if I was watching the whole thing. I just happened to see everything from my point of view. = = and then FINALLY I arrived in PENANG!! I was left outside to look for the 3 monsters. and then.... dum dum dummmm. Aaron, Adam & little Alex came running to me screaming 'Kakak Sharon!' and I started crying to know how much I was loved.But then, Alex ruined it all by saying 'Did you get us anything?'. = =

Who am I? Santa Claus?

pfft. anyways, I went to go eat penang food! my GOD. heaven. then we went back and I was knocked out so I slept. the next day, we went SHOPPING!!! but first I went roller skating and I nearly died. cause in queensbay mall(HEAVEN) there's a roller skating rink and I was dragged on to it by the boys and I kept on falling. I dont even know how to ride a bike! and then I went shopping! yay:]. bought loads of stuff for my darling sister karen who's stuck in kuching studying. then I called Rauth! it was so good to hear his voice again. :)la la la la la.. and today, we went to the BEACH! hoping I would get darker, I lied down on the sand for a while, woke up cause I felt something on my stomach, got up to find a stupid pigeon who thought my stomach was a good place to sun bathe. I screamed my head of and everyone started laughing at me. it wasnt funny. then I gave up cause there was no sun so I went into the sea with the boys and it was fun. but I got pissed cause this group of boys were there and they kept on calling me. ):(. idiots.anyways, went back home, showered, begged uncle ashok for the com, and here I am, writting thi post. Its not nice you know. I love penang and the boys but I dont like feeling like an only child. :( if karen was here, it would be more fun. oh yeah, karen the boys asked me to pass this msg to you:

WE LOVE YOU KAKAK KAREN!:)

well, I miss you guys and I promise i'll put some pictures up soon!

Xx. Muah and penang laksa is the best!

mc flurry and ms.apple pie are trying to comfort me.

well, I just came back from Mc Donalds with a mc flurry and an apple pie..

And I was looking at rauths pictures while eating the apple pie..

And realized..

I ate bits of the box it was in..

...

I got a very bad stomach ache right now..

rauth..

I miss you more than you can imagine!!
I have to go to school everyday with a fake smile..
But I break down so badly there, I get sent home early sometimes..
I think about you all the time.. I miss having you next to me..
But you're gonna get a better education there.. and you'll make new friends..
And tons of girls will fall in love with you just like the girls here did.. = =
but none of them will love you as much as I do..
I sent you a sms last night because I was crying cause I didnt get to say bye on msn..
please tell me you got it..
and for your information..
I've been waiting here in kuching since tuesday for an email, or an sms..

...

I fell in love with you Joseph Donat Rauth Clement..
And I'll always be here for you. no matter where you are, no matter how far you are, or even if you dont love me anymore..

missing you..
I love you..

what happened to hari mufti?

= =' the plant fell in love with me.
??
I like our hair. SHINNY.
putris boob's my chin rest. = =
:))))

they didnt make it any better.

Ahh. Well, Christine, Putri, Norma, Nina and I bought tickets to watch shows done by my school and the IGCSE 2 dedicated a song to Rauth and automatically everyones head went whoosh to look at me. I just slumped down deeper into my seat. Then I really couldnt take it anymore, especially when I started crying. Ugh. Then people I didnt even know came up to me and started telling me 'Aww, its okay' bla di bla bla BLA.

:(

you wont believe how much we all miss you.

especially me.

?

is it worth risking?

:(((

I miss you already..

I love you!

:(((

you just made my day!! :)))))

and you know who you are..

but if you dont think its you..

your name starts with a R

and ends with auth.

know who you are now??

....

I love you!!!

just a piece of advice.

FYI: never make promises you wont keep.

:(

i'll stand by you. no matter what. its just that I cant hold on much longer.

anak adik rurum!

thanks for being there sisters! (and brothers. =__=)

lovess

we are family.

i've got all my sisters in me.

we are family.

get up everybody and SING!.

cries.

missing rehersals.

missing rainfest.

missing those moments with you guys.

...

a few moments.

dont you think we're avoiding the fact its not going to last?

I love you SO much. dont think I dont. its just that.. well. its getting harder to look at you in the eyes now.

and it hurts cause, I'll love you for a long time, and you'll only love me for a few moments of your life.

=__=

Rauth dropped his phone at the park so me, Karen, Morgan and Wawa waited for him by the roadside. I was scared if someone would take it so I called his phone. This is what happened:

*Rauth picks up*
Rauth: Hello?
Sharon: Did you find it?
Rauth: Um, yeah?
*hangs up*

I am a complete idiot. blaming KAREN.

And then, me and Rauth were sitting by the window and the TV went freaky so Rauth ran screaming. And I just sat there thinking ' Okay, HE LEFT ME' what happened to 'i'll always be here' hmmmm? the only people I saw were karen and wawa and they were laughing.

fyi: you are still not forgiven

thanks alot. now I dont know who will save me if the freaky girl from TV comes.

=__=